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Im Just the way the doctor made me
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[15 Aug 2005|11:24pm] |
Today so much stuff happened. I have so much going on its unbearable to even comprehend.I thought people were my friend who were not and for that i blame myself. Never ever disrespect me and my best friend because you wont get anyway with it, i promise that.
Guess what? everyone gets what the deserve. and you will
What i wanna know is why good people get hurt?
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
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| I love shirley manson |
[29 Jul 2005|10:26pm] |
shirley manson rules.
Don't care what they have to say
Why you listening to them anyway
Why do you have to give them what they want?
They love to watch you as you fall apart
Seek to destroy cause they're scared of you
That's why they try to make a fool of you
They're so jealous of my pretty star
Cause you've got soul inside your shattered heart
And you've been waiting all your life
To fly high into somebody else
And it's true it's a cruel, cruel world
Life's a bitch and then you die my love
Don't care what they have to say
You shouldn't listen to them anyway
People like to build you up
Then they'll stab you in the back like that
You know it breaks my heart
Can't see you going out like that
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[05 May 2005|06:25pm] |
My life is the best its ever been, im so happy.
I love my friends more than anything =)
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| just one touch and i'd be in |
[13 Mar 2005|09:14pm] |
Things are good right now.
i love my boyfriend
i love my friends
i love my family
I am so happy right now, its crazy. i love him so much.
1 month tomorrow
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| I'm riding high upon a deep depression |
[20 Feb 2005|01:54pm] |
I guess ill always be an asshole. i dont care about anyone but myself. and its the truth. well thats what everyone thinks is the truth. im so self centered right. thats exactly how i am. i cant take anything anymore.
my life just keeps getting more and more and more depressing
as my life goes on, depression will bury me.
i am selfish. i know it, you know....
i love attention
i love complaining
i love making thigns difficult
i love everything to do with pain
i live for it.
people that use to be my friends, just think im a bitch. and that i changed so much. guess what maybe your the ones that changed, but that never crossed your mind did it. im the same angela i was, now. same person and i always will be.
there is one good point in my life which is dave and my best friends
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[13 Feb 2005|10:41pm] |
I don't understabd boys. they are the most confusing people alive. i get so many mixed signals. im so afraid of getting hurt.
i hate that period in between dating it makes no sense. it is the weirest thing ever.
i love that you can kiss behide closed doors but when people are around its not allowed. WHY?
You dont wanna rush into anything and its killing me because your giving me mixed signals and i dont know what to do with them
you confuse me so bad, and i dont know why i put up with it. it makes no sense to me
one kiss and im hooked.
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| You dont know what you do to me |
[12 Feb 2005|03:00pm] |
I cant take people anymore, they are killing me. I feel like lying in my bed for hours and hours. I feel like taking sleeping pills until i pass out. i cant take this shit anymore. im getting so sick and tired of all this drama in my life. its killing me. I just wanna forget everyone and just feel good, so good that i dont have to worry about one little thing.
Things are killing me. Everything is running me into the ground and i can no longer take it.
Im so emotionly insane. i have so many problems with my emotions. either i show them too little or i show them to much.
Boys are so hard to read. and it kills me. why are they so difficult. but i guess girls are difficult too.
Lately also on top of all this shit in my life, my sister the one person in the world that helps me out is gone for every weekend to stay with Joey. Its completely ridicilous, i mean dont get me wrong i like him and i am happy for her. but its like shes not my sister anymore i miss all th fights and the good times
Also i miss Jess Rac
Ive been thinking about the past, the times where i was best friends with jess how much stuff we did. Me and Alyse being crazy together. Even me and ainsley. I miss things sometimes. i miss when things were simple. even though they were not. I miss everyone from my past, no matter how much i hate some of them now.
Its ridicilous what growing up does to people.It tears people apart. I cant help but hear how many people do drugs. It depresses me. Why do people do that to there lives. People that have such good potential to do great things with there life throw everything about on drugs. It makes me so angry.I just so depressed at what some people turned out to be.
I wish i could of changed some people. But people cant be changed there the way they are for a reason and no one will change it. They deserve what they get. Everyone deserves what they get.
This world is so messed up .
-Angela
I hope i choke
People I miss: Alyse i didnt have pictures of us.
too may pictures
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[13 Jan 2005|11:55pm] |
Me and tiff have nothing better to do then this
one sentence-Im x Toxic: pants
Midnite809: studying
Im x Toxic: #1
Midnite809: GAY
Im x Toxic: crazy
Midnite809: MmMmM
MmMmM Crazy Gay #1 studying pants!
two-Im x Toxic: swiss
Midnite809: teeth
Im x Toxic: plain
Midnite809: feet
Im x Toxic: cream
Midnite809: from
Im x Toxic: mommy
Midnite809: tots
Swiss teeth plain feet cream from mommy tots
three-Midnite809: TREATS
Im x Toxic: yummy
Midnite809: fat
Im x Toxic: candy
Midnite809: sleep
Im x Toxic: sexy
Midnite809: tasty
Tasty sexy sleep candy , Fat yummy Treats!
four-Im x Toxic: metal
Midnite809: bar
Im x Toxic: strippers
Metal bar strippers
five-Im x Toxic: x rays
Midnite809: fart
Im x Toxic: bitchen
Midnite809: tore
Im x Toxic: flower
Midnite809: my
Im x Toxic: man
Midnite809: pee
Im x Toxic: jelly
Midnite809: on
Im x Toxic: plow
Plow on Jelly Pee Man. My flower tore bitchen fart x-rays.
six
Im x Toxic: octopus
Midnite809: amazing
Im x Toxic: cheddar
Midnite809: ring
octopus amazing cheddar ring
seven
Im x Toxic: kiss
Midnite809: my
Im x Toxic: rat
Kiss my rat
eight-Im x Toxic: peter
Midnite809: your
Im x Toxic: galric
Midnite809: tool
Im x Toxic: subs
Midnite809: hurts
Im x Toxic: beef
Peter! your galric tool subs hurts beef
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| red bull gives you wings |
[29 Dec 2004|10:55pm] |
so me tiff jib and rich partyed like it was 05
we drank massive amounts of rockstar red bull and then crashed
I am going to pass out
I LOVE LIFE
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[20 Dec 2004|10:09pm] |
I love taco bell. It's awesome. The cashier guy is my home boy.
all i have to say is i love Tiffy Jibby and Richy hahaha
they are my home dogs
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[04 Dec 2004|09:07pm] |
"I'm down with taking my top off"
of my coffee, sicko
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[23 Nov 2004|09:28pm] |
the new gwen stefani album is great. i love it
anyway my weekends have ruled thanks to Big T haha
my report was really good
Im so boring
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| Big house 5 cars |
[07 Nov 2004|06:19pm] |
My weekend was beautiful.
I got to see my Tiff
I got to see Jess
which are two great people
We made up a new game where one of us was a cop the other was an animal in a cage, and then there was the robber. the object of this game was for the cop to stand by the tree and pretend to eat doughnuts and then the robber would let the animal out and they would run and the cop would have to caught them. we are crazy.
also we dance to meatloaf. best thing ever. COME ON!
the next morning. the door bell rang like 4 times and each time no one was there. we think it was either dom, a old dude or a little fucking kid with a red jacket and a bike.
ate applebees. hung out in tiffs basement.
wednesday night hung out with michelle and tiff so much fun. we saw kelly woooo!!
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| Halloweeny haha |
[01 Nov 2004|07:03pm] |
Alice in Wonderland
Fucking people didnt dress up hahah but i love them
My girl T-bone and me
The fight
Starts to turn into a dance party
Skott's
Kevin being sweet
Kev and Cait
Jess Rac , Me and Cait
Me and Skott because he hates me
too many pictures
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| I Now take comfort in this. |
[26 Oct 2004|09:12pm] |
This year is so strange.Halloween is just about here im so happy. I cannot wait for it.So much fun. Lately things have been good. I've been hanging out with Tiff alot she is awesome, I love that girl. We have so much fun. We always have long walks, with long talks. And it's awesome because we get everything out.
Autumn is instersting. It is beautiful. Because of the all the colors but its weird weather thats depressing me sometime. Sex and the City, is now my life. I love it. Sometimes I think about things, and how maybe if I did things differently I wouldn't I've been through so much. Maybe if I would of used my head.
People are all turning out to be assholes. Everyone has changed so much, including myself.It's so weird to see people you use to be friends. When you see them, you think "why am I not still friends with them". Why is it so weird to see people you use to be good friends with?
I have a feeling highschool is going to be weird. Everyone changes every year. So every year people will turn into assholes. I miss some people. The new people I meet aren't turning out to be anything I appected them to be. To the friends I have now, you are all awesome i couldn't ask for more.
I can't wait until senior year to see how much people have changed and to see what everyone does with there life.
I think finally for once in my life I'm using my head and not getting myself into anything stupid. Finally my life is going good. IT's just alot different then it was last year. It's going to take time to get use too.
Tiff the Rapper thanks for being there for me so much, i love you. and dont worry i'll always be there to hold your hair back when you get sick =)
Candace you are the meaning of a friend forever, you been there threw everything. we fight all the time but thanks for everything
Ms. Jessica Rac you also are the meaning of a friend forever. thanks for being there too. you helped me through alot
<3 I love you guys more then anything
7 days until tiff the rappers birthday.
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[24 Oct 2004|11:51am] |
Once again I had an awesome weekend =)
Friday-
Me and Tiff hung out got food.
-Why won't my lock open haha
Saturday-
Went to see the grudge
Ran into Ashlee and Tony
Went to Alalana Break ate food
Sweet Tea
Saw the movies so scary
me and tiff were like little girls were were holding hands
a chiense man was laughing at us.
Sweet Sideburns car injured me
haha
Tiff leaving me in the basment i was freaking out
South Park
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